very weird dream

Alright, lets see if I can run through the highlights here.

Well, first I was evidently engaged to marry this chick. She was pretty. Long straight brown hair. And I really loved her in the dream.

And then somewhere along the way in the dream her gender changed. Which I only noticed in thinking about the dream later.

So then it's a guy. Still love him. Short, curly brown hair. And he's some sort of pool (like the game) instructor. My instructor. Or, at least the instructor of a class I was in.

Near the end of one class he lets me and a couple others go early because we have a dance competition to go to. And on my way out the door he kisses me hard as the rest of the class gapes on. Looks like the secret's out.

Oh, and did I mention I'm not engaged to him like I was to the girl?

So I go to some sort of lockerroom and get dressed for the competition, except that I've forgotten something back at the instructor guy's house that I left last time I was there, so I run over there cause evidently it's important. I still have no idea what I was going there for.

And while there his WIFE comes back into town. Hmm.... downer. And she evidently knows about me and tells me that I was just a fling and that if I thought he was actually going to keep me, then I was a fool. But she lets me in to get my missing item.

I go into his room where my mystery missing item is and what do you know, he's in the shower. So I pretend to be searching for the item for a while until I hear the water turn off and I knock on the door.

When he steps out he's unsurprised to see me. Unashamed to know that I've just met his wife. And then somehow we end up on the bed and then the dream gets a little more than PG13 while the wife is in the next room.

And that's the end.



You know, I'm actually now wondering if I was the guy in the first part and the girl was the wife that I later meet. It's possible. She did look similar except with shorter hair. There could be lapsed time. But I'm trying to impose logic on a dream. And that's kinda silly. ^_^

Crazy Anxious

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I understand why I was so anxious last month while I was in London. But now I'm home and it's really no better. Ok, ok, so I haven't been taking my medicine quite as regularly as I should since I've been home, so I guess that'll have something to do with it.... But I just expected things to be better.

Alright -> Initiate personal ranting ->


Patrick is pretty much MIA since he does work two jobs and that just seems to be the way things are. This would, perhaps, be ok if he could manage to call me now and then, but.... *bitter*
It's likely to get better. It's in the works.


Kenzie's out of town again and I miss her.


Our wireless is a pain in the ass these days.


I don't get to see my parents until October, which will be 9 months since the last time I saw them.


I miss Brendan, for obvious reasons.


And I haven't been sleeping well these last couple of nights.




Blah. And I'm done.

...must needs cuddles...